Poeme : Please

Please

Please don’t believe a word I say
When I say everything is fine
When I smile my worries away
When my life seems to be in line

The truth is, my heart is aching
Everything is falling apart
My last chance for hope escaping
My dreams and realities part

This strength and happiness you see
The laughter that shakes my body
A camouflage so you don’t see
The dry tears that shake my body

Never will he love me again
And school is not going my way
All efforts seem to be in vain
I can see my goals drift away

This year, many loved ones have gone
This year brought so many hassles
Enough pain let it soon be dawn
And let me win all these battles

Hard times occupied this year
But I am willing to hold on
I continue facing my fear
Until risks of failure are gone

Don’t believe a word I say
Even I may look okay
The want to quit I am fighting
And for your help I am praying

Please, I beg you, see past my smiles
Do not let it faint past the miles
I do fight but I need your help
Please don’t listen. I need your help.

12/04/04

pləazə

pləazə dɔnte bəljəvə a wɔʁ i sε
wɛ̃ i sε əvəʁitiŋ is finə
wɛ̃ i smilə mi wɔʁiz- awε
wɛ̃ mi lifə sim to bə ɛ̃ linə

tə tʁyt is, mi əaʁ is aʃiŋ
əvəʁitiŋ is faliŋ apaʁ
mi last ʃɑ̃sə fɔʁ ɔpə εskapiŋ
mi dʁəamz- ɑ̃d ʁəaliti paʁ

ti stʁɑ̃t ɑ̃d-apinεsz- iu si
tə loɡte ta ʃakə mi bɔdi
a kamuflaʒə so iu dɔnte si
tə dʁi təaʁ ta ʃakə mi bɔdi

nəve wij ə lɔvə mə aɡɛ̃
ɑ̃d skul is no ɡuiŋ mi wε
al efɔʁ sim to bə ɛ̃ vɛ̃
i kɑ̃ si mi ɡɔal dʁift awε

tiz- iəaʁ, mani lɔvεd ɔnə-avə ɡɔnə
tiz- iəaʁ bʁuɡt so mani-aslə
ɑ̃nuɡ pɛ̃ lεt it sun bə dawn
ɑ̃d lεt mə wɛ̃ al təzə batlə

aʁ timəz- ɔkypjε tiz- iəaʁ
byt i am wijiŋ to ɔld ɔ̃
i kɔ̃tinɥ fasiŋ mi fəaʁ
œ̃til ʁiskz- ɔf fεlyʁə aʁə ɡɔnə

dɔnte bəljəvə a wɔʁ i sε
əvɛ̃ i mε luk ɔkε
tə wɑ̃ to ki i am fiɡtiŋ
ɑ̃d fɔʁ iuʁ εlp i am pʁεjiŋ

pləazə, i bεɡ iu, si past mi smilə
do no lεt it fɛ̃ past tə milə
i do fiɡt byt i nid iuʁ εlp
pləazə dɔnte listɛ̃. i nid iuʁ εlp.

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